a lesson from my life

The way we interpret things around us is what makes us a decent human being or an evil human being since this very subjective interpretation determines the way we treat people. Of course, this ourselves-specific way of interpretation does not appear out of nowhere. On the contrary, it strictly sticks with the codes of ethics each and every person has. Sadly, it is not an easy thing to stick with your codes all the time due to the fact that people are not fair and most of them do not treat you the way you deserve although you do every good thing you can for betterment.

Last summer was hell for me, not only because of very hot and moist weather, but also because of the deception and betrayal I experienced by the people once I really loved. There were self-interest oriented incredibly low and ugly lies around me. It took me some time to wake up, and then I needed to struggle with this so intensive anger inside. I was like Hulk, you know giant green man destroying everything before him when he gets really angry. I guess, that Hulk part is a genuine part of me, but most of the time it is under control. I did not know what to do for some time, you know why, because my principles told me not to lower myself and trust the way universe works, which is "God sees the truth, but he waits". Well, it was not easy to calm down, so I got drunk a lot. However, something miraculous happened, and I found a way to express my feelings: poems. Up to that point in my life, I had never ever thought that I could write poems. In fact, I had always described myself as "facts and figures woman". The events, the people got shaped in my mind as mental pictures, and then through words I depicted that mental picture on paper. That evil did me a favour and forced me to find a way out, my poems. I took my lesson: do not be so naive, protect yourself. And my award is the poems I am proud of. They are amateur kind of poems, but my creations.

If you interpret the following poem with the feelings you have when you experience deception and betrayal, I am sure you will find a piece of your life in it. Hope you like it.

What's the unique quality
Of human beings
Making us the kings of the world
Is it the mind
Or the soul
Or the conscience
I suppose all
Yet there is one thing
Last but not least
It is the heart brother, sister
The land of love and mercy
Anger, hatred are the harvest
Of bitter cold winter winds
Cracking the land
With betrayal and deception
But keep the faith mate
Sooner or later
The goodness in your heart
Finds a way out
For brighter days
As for the cracking cold winds
They only freeze their kings